Again I mised a few days so here are days 11, 12 & 13 altogether. Better late than never!
Day 11 - A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk To
I was only in primary school when you passed away and I feel like I didn't really know you that well. I don't know if this is true or it is just because my memories of you are so vague. I wish that you could have been around to meet Corey, I think you would love him! It would have been amazing to have you here on our wedding day but unfortunately it is not to be. All I know for a fact is that you loved me very much and I loved you just the same. I am glad that I got to spend the time with you that I did even though it is never enough. Oh and everytime I think of you I think of this poem so I thought I would share:
Inky pinky ponky
Mama had a donkey
Inky pinky ponky.
I can't remember if you taught us that or Grandma taught us that but it always reminds me of you. One day when I have kids I am going to teach them that poem so they can know a little piece of you as well.
Love Kat xoxo
Day 12 - The Person You Hate Most
Dear Me at 14 & 15 years old
Hate is a very strong word but I hate the person that I was when I was in grade 9 & 10. I was an arrogant little shit who didn't know how good my life was. I acted out and treated my family horribly and caused a lot of people a lot of pain. I will never again be the person that I was then! And I hope to god that my children are never like I was but if they are it will be the biggest act of karma I have ever experienced. If there is one thing I could tell myself at 14 it would be smarten up! You have an amazing family and are ruining the best years of your childhood. Have fun but also have respect for those around you and for yourself.
Day 13 - Someone You Wish Could Forgive You
I was really stuck on this one but I think the one person who actually needs to forgive me is me. I still hate myself for how I was as a teenager. I didn't respect my parents and I didn't respect myself. I did a lot of things that I regret but can never take back. I wasn't as bad as some people. I never took drugs for one thing. But I still am not happy with what I did. I think in order to move on with my life and be truly happy with my life I need to forgive myself and move on. Otherwise I will always dwell on what I have done and never be truly happy.